Provision #788: Unbidden

Laser Provision

We put the poem in today’s Provision on the blog that’s been tracking my life, but I want to add a few reflections here that grow out of the many reader replies from last week’s Provision. I particularly like the comment from Ruth Ann Harnisch of the Harnisch Foundation: “My late first husband used to drawl, ‘There are two kinds of people in this life, baby: them what’s been hit in the face with a pool cue, and them what ain’t.’ You are firmly in the first camp now. It is different. Sweeter, more tender. Clarity burns like sunlight in your eyes. I’m sorry/glad. Enjoy every moment you can.” Want to know my thoughts? Read on.

LifeTrek Provision

The idea that there are two kinds of people • those that have been knocked down, hard, and those that have managed to get through life rather unscathed • has intrigued me ever since I received the reader reply from Ruth Ann Harnisch of the Harnisch Foundation to last week’s Provision. I would have read those words before and nodded as if to say, “Sure. That makes sense.” But I would not have known the power behind those words, even though I journeyed with my wife through her own version of being “hit in the face with a pool cue.” I thought I knew, but I did not know.

Until you have been there, you just don’t know. It is “sweeter and more tender.” Perhaps that’s why I have done so much crying lately. I watch movies or read news stories or receive emails with heart-warming or tragic stories and I just well up, unexpectedly and uncontrollably at times, with big, juicy tears. I have probably cried more in the past week or two than I have cried in my entire life. This, too, is part of the healing process when it comes to autoimmune limbic encephalitis (inflammation of the limbic system rooted in the brain). The tears are purging toxins from my system that must come out, one way or another.The spooky thing is all the coincidences that have been happening in the past week, as I calm down my immune systems and as I wake up more and more from my medically-induced coma. Some random thing will happen (like we tell Netflix to play movies in random order) and it turns out to be the perfect thing for me to watch at this point in my healing process (Together). That’s one of many such coincidences (like the November 2012 cover article of Nutrition Action Health Letterfeaturing an article on “How to keep your brain in working order.” It never stops.

Probably the most uncanny coincidence of all was the poem I wrote as the theme poem for this year, 2012. Long-time readers of LifeTrek Provisions know that I write a poem at the end of each year to launch us into the New Year. I often memorize those poems, to incorporate those themes more fully into my life. So how did I know that my poem, Unbidden, would foreshadow so perfectly the events of this year. This poem preceded by more than 8 months that seizure activity that began on August 30, 2012, but it captures exactly what I have been feeling and dealing with both in terms of suffering and in terms of healing on the trek of life. I publish it again here, so you get a sense of what it I am describing. Then, I invite you to read on to some of the selected reader replies that have been pouring in since last week’s Provision. As my wife put it to me recently, “You are a well-loved man.” Indeed.

Unbidden
•2012 Bob Tschannen-Moran

Things happen
Overtaken by events
Emotions race
Unbidden

Blocks happen
Stifling creativity
Urgency impairs
UnbiddenInsights happen
Discerning truths
Clarity emerges
Unbidden

Feelings happen
Spilling over
Provoking thoughts
Unbidden

Heartaches happen
Gasping for air
Confusion reigns
Unbidden

Dreams happen
Revealing secrets
Hope arises
Unbidden

Breaches happen
Sudden terminations
Swelling grief
Unbidden

Connections happen
Awakening hearts
Restoring souls
Unbidden

Yearnings happen
Moving mountains
Cleansing spirits
Unbidden

Inklings happen
Subtle noticing
What must be
Unbidden

Shifts happen
So unsettling
The sun rises
Unbidden

Dreams happen
Unleashing aspirations
Possibilities emerge
Unbidden

Coaching Inquiries: What things are unbidden in your life right now? What things are welling up inside you? What things are happening around you? How could you learn from them and collect the treasures these things have to offer? Who is your coach on the trek of life? 

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LifeTrek Readers’ Forum (selected feedback from the past week)

Editor’s Note: The LifeTrek Readers’ Forum contains selections from the comments and materials sent by the readers of LifeTrek Provisions. They do not necessarily reflect the perspective of LifeTrek Coaching International. To submit your comment, use our Feedback Form or Email Bob.


WOW! What a wonderful surprise! Bob, it is so good to know you endured and will continue to be part of the light!! Thought about you a lot during your ‘huge hiccup.’ It is with ‘real joy’ to have you able to resume your LifeTrek Provisions and continue in your mission of sharing your perspective of life and living and have you be the reminder we all need to “stop and smell the flowers.” True, we do not do it enough. Your purpose here in the land of illusion is not done, obviously. I, for one, and feel I need to say it again – am very happy to be sharing the path/journey with you. Thank you, Bob, for the reminder to seize the moment!!


So glad to wake up to this Provision, this poem, this affirmation that you are truly alive, awake and aware. Seize every new dawn with no expectation other than to wonder at the life that unfolds before your eyes. It is a gift you have been given, to see life with new eyes (and new glasses). Can’t wait to read more about it.


So happy to hear that you are back on the road to recovery. I am an epileptic and used to have seizures all the time. Most of them were the Petit Mal but I have had in my lifetime four grand mal seizures. Mine was caused by the high fevers I had as a baby. I was at one time seizure free for 10 years and did not take my medication for those 10 years also, then I had one grand mal seizure and now I take my meds all the time if I don’t forget to take it. But the last seizure I had was 1981 so I think that this great. Keep up the great work that you are doing Bob and remember you have a great support system with your lovely wife Megan and the others there that work with you and your family and friends.


It is so so wonderful to read your Provision! I have had you in my thoughts since your first seizure, and have been hoping, and sending out energy to you for recovery. I am immensely grateful that you are still with us in this world. I hope that your newly adopted resolve to rest after push continues to revive and replenish you. You are a beautiful person, Bob!


I can’t describe the deep emotion I experienced this morning when I discovered your Provision in my mailbox! What a joyful gift to have you back! I followed your recovery with the blog and thought of you and prayed for you through the worst of your ordeal. Today’s poem is perfect – with words we can all take to heart. Continue to take strength from the love around you! I look forward to future Provisions as well as your book!


What a wonderful surprise to see your e-mail and then to read your wonderful poem, which I could so relate to, and it brought tears to my eyes. What a miracle you are!!!!!! I am sure your book will bring wisdom and hope to many as your newsletter has for years. I don’t know if you remember me, but I met you at Chautauqua at Hurlbut Church many years ago at lunch, and we talked briefly and I got on your e-mail list. I have been enjoying and benefiting from your words of wisdom for many years, and I thank you so very much.


We are overjoyed to hear your voice again….our thoughts and prayers are answered. For now, please know our hearts are touched by the words of your poem. More later about our feelings that have been moved deeply. We just want you and Megan and all to know how we have missed you and your beautiful insight on life. We are grateful for the courage and stamina of all…especially you, Megan, to remain steady and strong. I know there were many others helping but I know you were always there, caring and loving. This is a Sunday morning for rejoicing! Thank you for sharing once again, Bob. May we all be awakened by your moving words.


So good to hear you are back in the saddle again. Though your experience is unique, I am living with a neurological disease “with no name!” It changed my life considerably, but I am “thriving” to the best of my ability, due to excellent care, a medication that is working (2x a day for the rest of my life!) and love. Your poem is beautiful and shows how the real YOU are back to seizing life once again. Thank you! I’m preparing my morning email to my mailing list. Can I share your poem?


I am so happy to hear from you again. Your story is very powerful. I often wonder if you were given this experience because you have touched so many people and have such a wide audience. Certainly, there are so many people who are now touched by your experience and listening for your lessons. You are moving us all forward. Thank you for sharing your story and all that you are learning because of it. Sending you and all those who are close to you strength and love


My heart is full of gratitude because with your family sharing and keeping us informed about your health with all its setbacks, progress and small step celebrations, I was able to do some much needed emotional housecleaning. My 17 year old daughter has had seizures since the age of 4 and we have been through two brain surgeries, memory loss, falls, progress and setbacks, fears and celebrations of small successes too. It was so healing to read about your progress as it allowed me to release all my emotions that I kept bottled up because I needed to be there for my daughter. My tears are tears of joy for you and your family because the love radiating through the writings was moving and inspirational. And I am grateful for my beautiful daughter who has taught me to truly enjoy things as they are, to appreciate all small things in life and to live in the moment. 


After keynoting a wellness coaching conference in London, England, I had my Mitral Valve let go, went into congestive heart failure, and after 6 days in a British hospital I came home and underwent open-heart surgery where my existing valve was able to be repaired. I was told that without being as healthy as I had been I never would have made it. This wellness lifestyle stuff comes in handy! That was six and a half years ago and I’m doing terrific. I’m very blessed and very fortunate. Like you, the people around me, the love and support they showed, and the continued loving support of my wife, have been that life-net holding me up when I couldn’t stand on my own in many ways. You’ve always struck me as someone who already knew about gratitude, compassion, kindness and giving. I’m sure all of that has deepened even more. All my very best to you, Bob!


This Provision brought tears to my eyes…..it’s so good to not only hear your voice when we talk but to see your words again. Remember your cadence….push and rest….push and rest! Rest is what heals and you will heal!


What a gift this early morning to wake up literally and figuratively to you and your inspiring words! I have followed you and your family’s incredible journey of Love, Hope, and Joy as you have all shared Life, as it is, it’s all good! (my motto) with all of us who may not have ever met you but have come to know you through such deep and personal sharing. Your poem touched me as I followed your journey and am living my own and have come to know the hope and promise in each moment that may feel filled with fear and uncertainty. I have turned to your words to lift me up and move me forward during my most difficult times. Thank you for putting into words and poetry what I am feeling. Much peace and love to you and your family.


I am thrilled that you are back to writing! Enjoyed the poem and you are correct that we tend to push through each day without taking enough time to smell the roses.


LifeTrek Provisions have ministered to me so many times. Looking forward to continuing the journey with you.


It’s that careful dance of which I speak, push yourself, test yourself just so far that you know when enough is enough – I’m convinced its all good and all part of the healing process – Bravo! 


Erika Jackson informed us about your seizure at the time. Thanks God our prayers were heard and there you are sound and safe. I really love your Provisions, you don’t know how much they have helped me, I use them as a tool for my classes and or counseling my students. I will be waiting for the new book “Seized by life” as all of your work they are very interesting and helpful. Loved the poem. Hope your health improves each day better and better – but please slow down, don’t push too much, you just had the experience how health and life is precious!!! Luckily you have a wonderful partner who cares for you!!! I’m pretty sure she`ll check your daily routine more strictly……LOL. Please accept my best wishes for a prompt recovery and keep up your amazing work, never give up please we all love you – be aware that you are a very important person, we can’t afford going on without your wonderful writings.


Wow! Truly an incredible experience! I have been lurking on the sidelines and reading your blog and watching your recovery and the Herculean support from your family and friends. Not sure how much of your past memory has recovered yet Bob but I for one remember that we both agreed that you would come up to Idaho and run a marathon someday. It looks like that might actually be a feasible goal with all of your progress to date. You have certainly been blessed and experienced a miracle above and beyond what I would have expected given your initial signs and symptoms those first few weeks with an unknown diagnosis. Please take your time and “pace yourself” with your recovery and give my best to Megan and your entire family. Truly a real Thanksgiving for them and the rest of your readers and friends around the world. God bless.


What a wonderful surprise to turn on my computer and receive the Provision. I understand about the push and push. I am sure somewhere you have a Provision titled, “Rest Matters”. If not, you should write one. (Not that I want to give you a task). You are truly an inspiration! 
Thank you so much,


How wonderful it is to find you in my INBOX this morning! I’ve been wondering how things were going. Hoping and praying for the best,…and still wondering. Sounds like it has been a very rocky road,…and you are still with us! Great! Loved the poem and the Provision, too. Fragile,..yes. Love,..yes. So happy for your awakening. (all meanings apply) Bob, my own life/health trajectory has also been a rough one. I’m attaching a story from one of my most scary episodes. In it, I tell about learning from these rough patches, and carrying on, doing the work, giving and receiving the love. Also attached is a poem I wrote, somewhere along the journey, approaching Gratitude,…one of my recurring learnings. Coach, I am so glad to have you back online, sharing, teaching, bringing your love into the world, cleverly disguised as a blogging teacher, mentor, coach. Best wishes for a continuing recovery.


What a magnificent way to start the day by seeing Life Trek Provisions on my phone. We screamed, smiled and said a prayer of thanksgiving so thankful you are recovering….so thankful to hear your voice through poetry and in messages only you can craft. As we know well, life can be so fragile yet so rewarding when we read and reread the message in your poem. continue to take good care of yourself in new ways and remember even eagles need a push to experience all that life has to offer. Be well my friend.


I am moved to tears after reading your poem. How infinitely great and mysterious this thing we call life is! My heart overflows with joy that you are here with us again, and that your gift with words continues to nourish our souls.


I am glad to see that you are back. I love the poem. You are in my prayers. God Bless.


It’s such a pleasure seeing your Provision again. It looks like the God was gracious enough to honor our prayers. On behalf of the entire community of your readers and on my personal behalf, I wish you a very smooth and fast recovery!


Seized by life is beautiful and inspiring. I am glad you’re back. You were never far from my thoughts and hopes.


I am so delighted to read this Provision and overjoyed with such thanksgiving. I am so very interested in your experience & thrilled to hear that you are writing a book & sharing what you remember & have learned through this time. Our friends are always asking about you & how you are doing & all so very happy for you & Megan. You know you had so many people praying for you all over with coverings of love.


One rejoices with you and with Gratitude to our Great Creator for your being on again with your Provisions. I wish you a very complete recovery; and may you continue to soar high like the Eagle


What a wonderful feeling to have another inspiring email from you this morning! I have missed them! I also discovered the same need to change the pace of life this summer. Not long before your life changing events, I was diagnosed with type II diabetes and possible heart problems. My life change was not as drastic • I simply decided to return to my roots as an educator. I am working this year as a first-grade teacher in Charlotte County Virginia. I cannot begin to describe how much this change has put life into prospective for me. I have rekindled my passion for education and found time to concentrate on the more important things • family, friends, and the miracles that God shares with us each and every day.


I can’t tell you how glad I am to see your new Provision! I’ve kept you in my prayers since receiving the first word from Erika that you were in the hospital…and have followed every progress report on your blog site. Day by day by day…may you reclaim you • mind, body and spirit. Warm wishes.


It’s so wonderful to see a note from you again! My thoughts and prayers have been with you during this. Challenging time. Keep the healing and encouragement going – you’ll soon be running marathons again!


I’m relieved and so pleased to see you “back in the saddle”. Congratulations on making it back “here”. And yes, being surrounded by, immersed in, love helps so, so much. If you ever read the postscript in my book (Wellness Coaching for Lasting Lifestyle Change) then you know that I’ve been down a similar path. After keynoting a wellness coaching conference in London, England, I had my Mitral Valve let go, went into congestive heart failure, and after 6 days in a British hospital I came home and underwent open-hear surgery where my existing valve was able to be repaired. I was told that without being as healthy as I had been I never would have made it. This wellness lifestyle stuff comes in handy!


What a gift this early morning to wake up literally and figuratively to you and your inspiring words! I have followed you and your family’s incredible journey of Love, Hope, and Joy as you have all shared Life, as it is, it’s all good! (my motto) with all of us who may not have ever met you but have come to know you through such deep and personal sharing. Your poem touched me as I followed your journey and am living my own and have come to know the hope and promise in each moment that may feel filled with fear and uncertainty. I have turned to your words to lift me up and move me forward during my most difficult times. Thank you for putting into words and poetry what I am feeling. Much peace and love to you and your family.


As someone who has had seizures herself, it’s that careful dance of which I speak: push yourself, test yourself just so far that you know when enough is enough – I’m convinced its all good and all part of the healing process – Bravo!


Welcome back in life !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take YOUR time !!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully Your health grows stronger and stronger AND hopefully same to Megan !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! who surely has had a very, very hard time too ! Its always the partner too, who suffers sooo much. Give her a kiss from us – don’t worry: You won’t get back :-)) Our thoughts are with You both and there is a little tear in my eyes while wishing all the best to you both.


I read the blog about your seizure every day. I was one of the ones praying. 🙂 Your journey made mine feel very small. I was acutely aware at the time that losing almost all my stuff through financial stress was really small fry and that I would rather this any day than to have a serious illness. I am so glad to hear from you in person. And to know that you have come out the other side. Blessings to you…I can’t wait to hear how you write about this.


Welcome back Bob! You have really been missed. A special thank you to your daughter for keeping us up to date with your progess. It must have been a very scary journey that you and your loved ones travelled and it is quite miraculous that you are back writing LifeTrek Provisions. We are blessed by it and by the thoughts and emotions you share in the poem describing your •re-birth•. Thank you.


Wow, Bob, how we praise God for you and your healing! It’s been inspiring to share with so many in person and on e-mail who have been lifting you and Megan up in prayer. Hallelujah!


It’s great to hear that you are on the road to recovery! And your poem is great. I too had a very eye-opening situation occur a few years ago. I went through a major eating disorder that left me one inch from murder, suicide, and giving up on life all rolled into one. I was able to pull myself through and am always grateful to hear from people who have overcome great struggles of their own. You’re a good man Bob, and I wish the best in your continued journey.


Good afternoon Bob, Very powerful message!! Glad to hear you•re on the road to recovery. Part of the meaning is: your work here is not complete and we are all the better for having you here.
Live with MOJO. Thank you for being YOU! Cheers.


Your note and poem brought tears to my eyes. Tears of joy to see YOU in action again! I have been talking to others in the coaching community and checking your status online, but nothing beats the words of love and wisdom from you. Wishing you, Megan and your family a healthy, joyful holiday season.


It’s so good to have you back again, so fully present again. I look forward to many more Provisions, and am most appreciative of Megan and the rest of your loving cohort who fought so well to keep you alive.


It’s so wonderful to see a note from you again! My thoughts and prayers have been with you during this challenging time. Keep the healing and encouragement going – you’ll soon be running marathons again!


May you be filled with goodness, peace, and joy.

Bob Tschannen-Moran, MCC, BCC

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